Thursday, January 26, 2006

Nomad

Sekarang di Puchong, weekend kembali ke Serdang... Kemudian mungkin tinggal di Serdang untuk seminggu, kemudian kembali ke Puchong.

Sunyi bila balik ke rumah yang takde orang. Dulu ada ibu dan Nur. Sekarang di Sarawak, mungkin sampai bulan Jun. 6 bulan tu tak lama mana kan? Sekarang ni, aku rasakan aku nak buat macam macam benda yang aku tak dapat buat bila ibu dan Nur ada di sini. Macam, keluar dengan kawan ke apa ke. I want to be someone my age... not older.

Rindu jugak. Takkan tak rindu. Hanya aku, ibu dan Nur sejak ayah pergi. Orang lain ada. Tapi macam berdiri di luar bulatan. External, close but distant. Bukan nak kata apa, aku rasa tak ramai orang boleh put up dengan ibu macam aku. She's not difficult. Tapi there are moments that require some patience. But then again, for someone who struggles so much for our sake, I think it is not even going to be a question.

Sementara ibu takde, aku akan berusaha untuk menurun kan berat badan! Tak banyak 10 kilo pun jadilah! Dah terlampau gemuk sekarang ni! Dulu rasa tak mungkin boleh jadi lebih gemuk tapi sejak menjak ni, rasa sudah makin gemuk! How can it be possible?!

Are~

Sekarang ni minat MatsuJun dari group Arashi. Masa mula mula tengok dia dalam Hana Yori Dango punya snippets, I though... GOD! What a Butt ugly Doumyuji! Tapi bila tengok Gokusen Dorama, lepas episode 3, mula minat! Not bad, he look really sweet when he smiles. Suara menyanyi pun ok jugak! Tak sabar nak tengok HYD. And also Kimi wa Petto. Dia jadi the foundling... ehhe... the pet I mean @_@ itu yang nak tengok sangat tu!

Dah begging dengan cara yang agak sombong dari Detto... dia nak torture aku katanya. Aku nak jugak! Tak kira!!!

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

Manga Fever

Manga manga manga!!!

@_@

Nothing but manga!

While listening to Rurutia

KYA!!!

- yes, another pointless entry ^_^;

Wednesday, January 4, 2006

Dream + Work = Zombie

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I've been dreaming about working lately. I wake up tired instead of rested. It has been going on for the past few weeks. Most of the times I can't remember the details but I know I was dreaming about working. The things I do at work 5 days a week, reenacted in my dreams.

I believe that dream is a way our brain organises all data received during the day. Which means working must be at least 80% what is inside my brain on most days. I do think its just plain crazy. Makes me worried to think that work is ruling my life.

I had a one to one session with my asst. manager today. I enjoy such sessions because we can actually chat about work in a way where you can comment about what you like and hate about what you're doing everyday, basically whatever it is about work. One of the things that popped up was the dreams I'm having.

I do dream about other things of course but usually as it approches the time for me to wake up, I would always ended up dreaming about work. One time it got to the point where I got physical about it. I woke up freaked out, naturally.

Of course it worries me somewhat. Its bad enough doing the work as it is but fretting about it for the rest of the hours that I am unworking is just pathetic. I suggested that perhaps I am worried about the quality of work I am doing (our work are QCed by colleagues in the UK) My asst. manager reasoned that I shouldn't be if I am doing things the right way. He is of course saying the right thing but after they took my send direct the last time (which has been returned recently) I am getting very cautious with the things I am doing. You can say I have grown paranoid that I am doing things wrongly. I did receive a good feedback the last time, yet that was the last time. I wonder how it will be for the next time... and there I go again... worrying about work when I should not be thinking about work.

Now, I'm thinking of taking some sort of supplements to help me sleep better. Asst. Manager suggested warm milk + honey. I'm thinking around the line of cough syrup... but that is like... drug abuse isn't it (heh) But heck, I don't want to be zombified : Work work, eat work, rest work, sleep work, shower work, brush teeth work... overkill.

I might be dreaming about work again tonight, though. Plus, I have to wake up early tomorrow. I have an appointment with the doctor regarding my hypertension. Yep, I have that too... yippie!!

But seriously, I do hope I would be dreaming about something else other than work for tonight.

Monday, January 2, 2006

Naruto Keychains

Naruto
Sakura
Sasuke
Iruka
Itachi
Rock Lee
Kakashi


I don't usually collect Anime trinkets or models. I guess I am not that an otaku. But I appreciate free stuff - animewise, like the keychains GempakStars giving away bimonthly since 3 months ago. Now I have seven of em. The latest in the addition is my favourite, Kakashi.

You don't have to tell me. I know the images are hopelessly blurred. I have a very pathetic camera! You can play guess what is it if you want or mouseover the pictures to know which is what.

Magna Carta : Tears of Blood







Finally! English version popped out last November. I just read the news yesterday, silly me :P I have the Japanese version in my collection (2 in fact and please don't ask why) which I never played because of my limited Japanese vocabulary. The character designer for this game is Hyoung Tae Kim and if you have seen the arts you'll agree with me that they are just lucious! The game has somewhat a mediocre ratings though, but hey, Final Fantasy VIII got mediocre ratings by most die hard Square fans yet I love FFVIII very much.

Admittedly, I don't play much games anymore, my last one being Shadow Hearts : Covenant. And that was over 6 months ago. On and off I do play some racing or puzzle games. I replayed FFX-2 a bit but nothing serious. Much more preoccupide with sleep, heh-he. Perhaps it is high time for me to visit the gaming section of my local mall to continue on my collection (Mental Note: Has to get one of the Need for Speed titles and the latest GT while I'm at it)

Btw, if you are interested to know about Magna Carta I got the pictures here. The rest, knock yourself out here.

Kedah trip


Meant to put this here sooner but lazy me...

11:15 PM 12/16/2005

:p The road trip was fun but not spending time here. Currently in Kedah, Bandar Darulaman, Taman Siswa UUM. Reason: for an extremely successful cousin's wedding.

My cousin, the one whose getting married is OK. I have nothing against him. He is really a nice guy. But his half sibs annoys me. :P Fuckin' hate em!

Alright,we set out from home at 12 noon. The drive was long but my sister and I love long road trips. I mean, we really love it because we used to do it a lot when Ayah was around and he was still working with Agricultural Ministry. We used to go around this side of Malaysia. So, long trips always bring fond memories. Good thing that we both can drive so, it was either me or my sister.

Has been awhile going as far Kedah. I used to study in Kulim, but that was 5 years ago. So it feels really good. The scenery was great, especially Kedah. All the paddy fields! It was raining on and off, but everything was hardly eventful. The usual bickering between my sister and I makes the journey more 'interesting' but overall it was enjoyable.

But then, when we got here,everything turns shitty thanks to my cousins :P

Orang cam bagus berkumpul beramai-ramai akan menghasilkan satu effect yang sangat menyakitkan hati. Although I tried not to feel so worked up about it but its difficult because the proximity is too close. Thank God they are staying at different houses!

Now... its late. I need to o to sleep. I did slept for an hour previously but tomorrow going to be a LONG day. so, I better go. I wish I can be more visually descriptive about the road trip but I am a bit challenged in that department.

Adieu, mon ami. May tomorrow be a better day~

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8:42 PM 12/17/2005

Day2 in Kedah

Nyeh! This student house is nice. It has all the basic neccesaties. Fridge, stove, clean toilet and bathroom, flushable toilet, good water pressure, TV plus air conditioning other than the ceiling fans on each room.

It has 3 rooms, each rooms has two beds, I'm sharing with my sister, my mom is sharing with my aunt and there is another one Lily, the makes up artist is in the last room alone. My brother and family will be joining tonight, so Lily was nice enough to help my sister move one of the single bed in her room outside to allow my aunt because my mom decided to move out of the room to allow my brother to her room for this night.

Lily is by the way a trans. Which explains why we need to move out the bed instead of just bunking in.

Anyway, the akad nikah was this morning. Went smoothly. We set out at about 10am, lots of picture taking in the mosque. I sat in one corner like a kera sumbang... wait... I am one when it comes to these people. Then we went to the bride's house for some makan-makan.

Then we went back. Going around the town, looking for my sister's anak tudung :P Also some beras to cook for tomorrow. Found a convenient 5kg pack, which means we don't have to lug around the excess rice.

Its raining the whole day. Still raining now. It rains since morning. It was raining all the way, it was raining on our way back. Rain, rain, rain...

Remind me of Bleach OVA : Memories in the rain...

Didn't go anywhere other than the akad. Just stayed in, beh tido... tido tido tido...

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8:34 PM 12/18/2005

Day Three. Flood.

I woke up later than yesterday. But there was no rush as today is only for the jamuan makan.

But then news came that due to the non stop rain yesterday, the bride's house is flooded. Its impossible to held the Jamuan there.

Plan B went into motion. Everything was shifted to the nearby Golf & Country Club. Everything was delayed for about an hour while they shift people from the bride's house to the Country Club. Then, everything went back as planned. As I was saying my cousin is an ultra successful person his age (our age I should say. he is younger than me by a month!) to think that there was actually a Plan B. In normal circumstances, we would just brave the flood. What and how money can help you!!

By the way, guest of honours were Khairy Jamaluddin and wife, Nuri Abdullah (that's son in law and daughter of our PM) After eating and shtuff, there was some picture taking. (I was of course off frame :P )

My brother who arrived last night went back, as well as some of me cousins. Of course after thoroughly making sure that highway is not flooded (it is, at KM 10 and 28, which does not effect us... I checked the map and PLUS)

We stayed, tomorrow we will go home. We won't be able to head further north as the flood is getting worse, if you watch the news tonight, they mentioned places where we are, the situation is getting worse.

Hopefully, we would be able to go to Pasar Rabu because my mom wanted to get something. Then another long trip home. I hope the flood won't get so bad that they would close down the highway or we will be stuck here :(

Sunday, January 1, 2006

OH... 2006 ALREADY?

In the year 2006 I resolve to:
Get further into debt.

Get your resolution here